I looked for you my whole life and never once realized I was the one lost.
How can you expect to find the person that is meant to be in your life if you have wandered off-grid? You know it’s funny when we live a life filled with heartache and grief that you brought on ourselves and then wonder why I am alone; why don’t I have love in my life, why don’t I have the type of friends I deserve or the career I imagined?
Maybe you aren’t alone, and perhaps all the people you’re waiting for are right in front of you and waiting for you to notice them.
I know I’m not the only one that has suffered from being overworked, over-mommied, over wifed/husband, and plain out over-committed. All of these things will make everything look dark and gloomy.
Not too long ago, I remember telling my husband life is so shitty! We live, die, and do a bunch of shit between the two.
He turned around and looked at me as if I needed an exorcism!
His expression caught me off guard, but his frankness pulled me in. He said, “You are being dramatic and not making sense; life is good; what’s wrong?”. He wasn’t wrong. I felt like I was being pulled in a million directions, none of which were desirable ways to go. But, I DID FEEL A SENSE OF RELEASE when I said that to my husband—saying how I felt made me make some easy choices. I knew that I needed to do away with some of the pulling that was going on.
It was time to disengage from anything that didn’t offer me satisfaction. I needed to be selfish with my time and energy; put myself first. Once I did that, I realized everything that I personally was in search of was right there the whole time.
THE THINGS you are waiting on could be waiting for you to notice them!
You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored!
~Belladonna~
Belladonna’s Flashlight 
“THE THINGS you are waiting on could be waiting for you to notice them!” –So true!! And a very needed reminder for me today.
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Thank you so much! I hope you have a great weekend!
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You do the same!
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Wow! Sometimes happend, we need to be selfish and recharged our energy,..
Thank’s for share Belladonna, have a lovely time!
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Yes you are so right!
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Thank’s dear Belladonna.
Have a lovely weekend!
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Pulling back and taking time for ones self is so important. Great post, Belladonna .💕
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Thank you Grace! Yes pulling back is so freeing.
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My pleasure. Absolutely 💕
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So true!
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Thank you for reading Rosaliene
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I really screwed up my life in high school, I didn’t realize that the people I hung out with weren’t friends, and since then, I’ve hooked up with high school friends who’d saw what I was doing to myself, and couldn’t convince me to turn away, and now, they are best friends….
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I can relate this!!!! We were young and dumb and not alone with this experience. Uggghh thank God we live and learn,
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You’re right on the money, Girl!! This seems to be a common thread for many, many, people, as of late. Let’s face it…We all have to reassess at some point. Why not right now??
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Amen!!!! Why not now. Yesss!
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At some stage of life, this feeling comes over most of us. The thing is to look past it and see the bigger picture
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When you are in the middle of full mom duty and work the bigger picture does indeed look a little fuzzy!
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Yes it does. Take a deep breath and exhale
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Thank you Sadje!
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You’re most welcome
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You’re right. I agree.
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Thank you KK!
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Sometimes modern life can just get overloaded, it’s good to take a step back so things don’t overwhelm you. Doing so often helps put things in perspective as well.
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Amen! It truly does help.
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We all get stuck in our own little worlds, I’m guilty of that. I like the idea that your future is in front of you if you only pay attention.
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Yesss Ally I love that!
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Oh no, not the exorcism! 😝 Honey Belladonna, I think we all get sucked up into a frantic, chaotic funnel cloud, and feel like Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz searching for Auntie Em in a bubble. Lately, it seems like so many of us feel like Linda Blair and watch our heads rotate in a 360 degree turn. Step back, let some stuff go, mellow out, stop trying to do 100 things in a day, and breathe. If you don’t take care of yourself, life will still go on, with you or without you. 🤔 Everyone in your household, including Larry will survive, but will give you the side-eye with your hair standing up all over your head like Phyllis Diller. 😲 Give yourself a break because in all actuality, everyone else is going to be okay, and can fend for themselves!
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YESSSSSS!!!!!! I needed this! Girl they all can go sit down somewhere. Larry is the main one looking at me like girl you better get up and get me my food. Little bossy Chihuahua.
Isn’t it the worse when you feel like Phyllis Diller. LOLOLO That lady had no shame and I loved it!
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Queen B, you know what to do. As the saying goes, “When momma ain’t happy, nobody is happy!” No shame in your game sistah. You know how to work your magic and psyche everyone out, including that bossy little Larry! 🤣😜🐕🦺😆😂 Hugs and smooches my queen! 👑👸🏻👑
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Sometimes we need time to look back and process what has happened to us. I’ve done both extremes. I discovered people who weren’t true friends and in fact were users. I’ve also realized who true friends were and what they meant after they left (died or moved far away).
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I have had similar experiences! So good to know who’s in your corner and who isn’t.
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Yes. Sometimes it takes a while to find out though.
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You are adorable, your post is like a warm hug first thing in the morning bella. Tram. Xx
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This is the sweetest and nicest comment! Thank you!
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❤
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