Stumbling Through My 40's
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Monday is like a sunrise gently kissing your skin with rays of hope and promise. The sun is shining light on all the hopeful possibilities of your week. Read More
I woke up to sunshine, and it quickly turned into rain and then thunder joined in. All of the chaos outside brought peace and calmness over my entire body. I sat Indian style on my bed in this newly built beautiful hotel room, that was covered with modern designs and plush white covers excitedly daydreaming about the events to come in the next few hours. I was about to marry my best friend, the one that God custom made just for me. Read More
All she can feel is the weight of the world on her shoulders and the breath of temptation breathing heavy on her neck. She can feel the sun beating down on her skin scorching every part of her that’s exposed. When she rises, everything goes black, Read More
Before I go any further let me say this. Yes, I will be cooking again but let me get out of my feelings first. I am a woman on edge and, I will throw a tomato or an onion at someone right now. Read More
I wonder if I change my deposition would you choose to be by my side? It’s been so long since you chose me. Thinking back I don’t think you ever have. I longed for you to and I think for a second I imagined you did. My imagination ran away from me and formed a picture that I longed to see.
She is laying in bed half awake and half brain dead. She can’t help but wonder where the night went. Her legs are a little swollen, feet are sensitive to touch, hair feels greasy like it hasn’t been washed in weeks. When she felt her face, she could tell that her bags were back more prominent than ever. She couldn’t help but to look up at the ceiling and say, “do I have to repeat this schedule again.” Read More
It’s sickening to see men walk around thinking they should be treated like a King but disrespect and abandon the people they should cherish the most. If you make a choice to turn your back on your kids and their needs, then you face the fact you just might grow old alone. Read More
Lots of people want to ride with you in your Limo but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when your Limo breaks down.
~Oprah Winfrey~
You call it a resting bitch face and assume that I must be one. I call it not wasting my energy and time on your pointless conversation. The art of being blunt and not sitting idle while patiently listening to garbage but you call them words. Having me walk away and knowing that you’re talking about me like you did the others. So to you, I give the resting bitch face
I allowed you to trick me once or twice possible 3 but now I see you for what you are, I’m not mad just confused on when you learned to act. You still have people fooled into thinking that your intentions are good and that I’m the one that’s collapsed. Questioning who I am and what I stand for. Started out thinking that maybe I need to clear the air and get somethings straight. But I quickly composed myself and gave this whole situation my resting bitch face.
No longer wasting time on wondering what pictures are being passed around of me and leaving me the joke of your day. I hope you laughed and laughed hard. I know that you were secretly hoping that I would fall and lose everything that I have. Wanting everything that I love to stop loving me. So I know you hate what you see. You staring at me while I’m staring ahead at my next preplanned and bulletproof move. No smiles just focus with my face resting kind of bitch like.
I’m stuck in my zone and no longer focusing on the foggy and unstable. Uncontrollable impulses aren’t my concern. I know you think your words were unheard since a reaction is what you didn’t get. But I heard you it’s just my health, and peace of mind is my concern. Ignoring the outrageous have truly helped put years back on my life. No longer treading in muddy waters. But poised on my thrown and not shouting back. Not letting you drain me and murder my thoughts. Not today or any other day. But I will give you my resting bitch face and then slowly twirl away.
Getting your health in check just balances everything else out. When you are eating right your mind works differently and you lack the desire to allow poisonous behavior to enter into your life. Your energy will make it uncomfortable for negative spirits to be around. Your mind and focus is something that an unhealthy mind can’t fathom.
External as well internal change will occur after a week or two of eating right, meditating, sleeping longer, and working out. If you carry any type of mental hurt or anxieties then I beg for you to focus on your health and lean on me if you need help. My desire is to make as many people feel whole and to perfect that resting bitch face.
