Bad Days

No matter what, there will always be bad days!

I’ve often wondered if having bad days were out of our control. Can we fight through the awkward or uneasy feelings and trick ourselves into having all good days?

I swear everything can go as plan but no matter what, bad days will creep in. It will show its ugly face and laugh as it sweeps in, reminding you that you have feelings. Reminding you that you feel pain and still have bottled-up anger.

Today started that way for me.

As soon as my eyes opened, I felt rage. My incision on my neck was hurting, and then that pain triggered other emotions that I didn’t know still existed. So I laid back down and remained still for as long as possible. I was hoping and waiting for that feeling to subside.

My 11-year-old daughter came into my room while I was sipping my coffee and praying. She told me this long, drawn-out story that made me laugh. She always takes my mind to a better place, and I’m thankful for that. Her innocence and carefree attitude soothe my soul.

Once she was done telling her story, she bounced out of my room. I looked down at my empty coffee cup and began to pray again. This time there weren’t any complaints coming out of my mouth, but there was a lot of begging. Today I needed God to hold me tighter than usual. My spirit was broken, and I knew that he was the only one that could fix it.

And he did just that!

I know I will always have some bad days

And I know that my good days will always out weigh my bad days

So I won’t complain

I’ll ask the Lord to carry me through and do what’s best for me

So I thank you Lord

I won’t complain

You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored!

~Belladonna~