Take Me As I am

I get so frustrated when I see people transform into something they aren’t just so they can get the attention of whom they desire.

Do you know how amazing you are?

I mean, do you realize that there isn’t anyone else alive like you? You are powerful, sharp, breathtakingly gorgeous, and have the capability of being anything you want to be. Read More

This seat is taken

Stop trying to be someone else!!! Why is this so hard to do? I mean, can we just stop looking at each other and taking notes. Be you, Be DIFFERENT. Trying to fit in is one thing, but trying to take on the personality or tone of another is flat out ridiculous. I tell my kids to be different. Do not conform to predigested thoughts and ideas. BE YOU.

Do you realize how taxing it is to try to be someone other than yourself? You are always in competition with someone and coming up short. At some point, you have to come to understand that sit is already taken. Find out why you are so unhappy with you and fix it.

Over the summer, my daughter and I watched a great deal of Catfish. This is a televised show on MTV/Hulu. Catfish is about people taking on the face/personality of someone else and fooling people over social media. The Catfish usually take photos of someone that they don’t know personally, but they like what they see. They know that by using this person’s picture, they will attract the type of person that they desperately desire to be. I genuinely feel that the catfish actually start to feel better about themselves when they are portraying to be someone else.

I am always sad after the show. Okay, so here comes Nev and Max with the Victim (the person that was catfished), and they knock on the catfish door and out walks a blue sole.  I can not tell you how many times an overweight person walks out the door with their head down and looking so pitiful. The Catfish usually will say,
“I know that I am not what you expected and I am so sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you, but I loved how it felt when you desired to be with me, and I knew if you saw me you wouldn’t want to talk to me anymore.” The catfish continues with, ” Everything about our relationship was real EXCEPT, I’m not who you thought I was.”

I just want to reach in that TV and grab the catfish and tell them that they are enough.  Spend time and work on your internal self. Once you love yourself and remove anyone and anything that reminds you of what you use to be or even worse, what you never were but what they wanted you to be. Stop trying to be someone else and stand in your truth, and love it.

It is incredible how good you feel about yourself when you start to eat clean, workout and start to better yourself mentally. For sure, it is okay to have someone that motivates you to be better, but don’t take it to an unhealthy place.

I speak from a familiar place, I wasn’t always confident. I felt like I wasn’t good enough, pretty enough, smart enough, or talented enough. I always wanted to change things about me that would make me a little more desirable. But then I realized that feeling this way about myself is a waste of time. I’m losing valuable time, I’m losing at life. So I decided to stop focusing on the things that I hated about me and instead what I LOVE. My confidence and self-love grew. I stopped looking at the already taken seat and sat in my own….wearing my crown and all.

You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~

You’re My Queen

Her day was all about meetings and schedule more for the next day. She continually tries to stay two steps ahead of her male coworkers. If she doesn’t, they will notice and quickly confront her and their VP of her downfalls. She regularly feels that she is being watched, and everyone is waiting for her to make one questionable move. So far, they have nothing to see but the back of her ass as she climbs the corporate ladder. Read More

The Day I Stopped All The Bullshit

The Day I Fell In Love “Part 2”

Let’s talk about that day.

I was 22 with a chip on my shoulder and mad at the world because I felt like the world was mad at me. I had a temper and a right and left hook that refused to back down to anyone. I was out looking for trouble, which wasn’t hard to find because I knew where to look.

The truth of the matter is I only joined the military because I wanted to be taught how to defend myself if I were to be attacked by 2 or more persons at once. I wanted to be able to shoot a target in any location I desired on the first shot. My sergeants’ had to pull me off the shooting range. Read More

Gratitude! 1018 Views

I welcome everyone new to Belladonna’s Flashlight and for everyone else, Thank you for staying! I hope you enjoy being apart of the fam and will continue to read and join in on discussions. I love hearing from you all. Read More

Just A Thought

Prayer will take you a long way! Right, when you think about giving up God will grab you up and hold you tight and show you why you shouldn’t.

I’m listening to God and I believe in his power.

I hope you all let God be God and direct you on the right path.

You could have chosen to read any blog but you chose mine and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~

Are you Okay?

All she can feel is the weight of the world on her shoulders and the breath of temptation breathing heavy on her neck. She can feel the sun beating down on her skin scorching every part of her that’s exposed. When she rises, everything goes black, Read More

Just My Imagination

I wonder if I change my deposition would you choose to be by my side? It’s been so long since you chose me. Thinking back I don’t think you ever have. I longed for you to and I think for a second I imagined you did. My imagination ran away from me and formed a picture that I longed to see.

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