Love Wins

….and I don’t mind💗

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Back in the day, I thought using the L word would make me vulnerable and wide open for heartbreak. I was always like… I love you, but I don’t love you, love. There are levels to this ish, and you’re just on level one boo.

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May Madness

I hate to be the mom that’s drunk every night during the last week of school. But I need to just chill and tap out for a minute. The last 3 weeks of my life have been a blur and I just keep hearing these damn reminder alerts going off on my phone. I am so sick of hearing those damn dings but without the reminders, I would forget everything.

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Do You See Me

All we want is to be seen and heard. You may not agree with everything we are saying and that’s okay just acknowledge that fact that we are here. Some so many ladies will go through their entire life and not know what it’s like to be listened to. As well as being left to wonder if they are being seen or looked over. Yeah, you have said the L word but what does that mean without putting actions behind it.

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I Thought I Lost You

The largeness of something depends on the angle from which we view it...

October 1st is one of my favorite days of the year because that’s the day that I became a mom. Some may argue and say that the day you found out about the baby is the big day and welcomed you into parenthood. I disagree. When you look into those eyes and see them looking back at you and feel their tiny hand grip your finger… that’s when you become a parent. Things are about to get real. Your life is no longer your life. Everything you do should be in the best interest of your baby. Your needs, wants and desires are put on the back burner and if you don’t like the way that sounds then please don’t have anymore.

My other two favorite days are February 10th and September 29th. We welcomed two more beautiful babies in the world and boy did we have to level up. As a woman, I was shocked at how much time I had to put in every single day. When they were all small I would put them down for a nap or just tell them to lay and rest for 30 minutes. While they were doing that I would just stare at the wall. Don’t even think I blinked for at least 10 of those minutes. Most days I was a tired and delusional soul.

I remember when Makenzie was born, Elijah was in kindergarten and he never wanted to do his homework. He cried and threw a fit every day and every day I had to threaten his life. Here I was waking up 3 times in the middle of the night with my newborn baby, and then as soon as she was cozy in my arms the alarm clock that I wanted to throw out the window would sound off. I would stumble downstairs and fix breakfast, comb hair and make sure my energetic son and mild-mannered daughter were ready to hit the car for drop off. I don’t know why I didn’t let them ride the bus back then. By the time I reached the house, it was time to feed Makenzie and get started on my routine.

Every growing day I lost a little piece of me. I don’t think I realized it until I looked in the mirror and didn’t recognize myself. Yes, I gained weight but it was more than the weight. It was more than what I saw it was what I didn’t see. That beam of light and determination was gone. I made sure there was light in everyone in my household and felled to see mine was gone. It’s hard for me to describe this discovery without getting drawn back into that painful moment. I made sure that I ran my household with little flaws and that took every bit of me. I left nothing in my pot and almost lost my own identity. All of a sudden I was Elijah’s wife, Samantha’s mom, Elijah’s Mom, and Makenzie’s mom. At that moment all I wanted to be was KELLI.

At this moment and forever more that’s who I am first…KELLI

Refusing to lose me!

You could have chosen to read any blog but you chose mine and I’m honored!

~Belladonna~

 

 

 

 

 

My Favorite Thing About Me

I LOVE to laugh and I need to be around others that like to loosen up and enjoy a joke. There is nothing worse than taking yourself so serious. Life can be so amazing if you are willing to LAUGH.

So let’s get started, I want everyone to share one thing about them that will make everyone laugh. I’ll go first. Watch the video below and you’ll get the idea of what I want you to share.

Happy people have more fun!

You could have chosen any blog to read but you chose mine and I’m honored!

~Belladonna~

 

 

The Best Broccoli​ Cheese Soup

It’s cold outside and we all need something warm to eat. I can’t think of anything better right now than soup. But let’s make it fun and skip using a bowl for our soup. Follow me into the kitchen to see what I mean.

So,  I love to make my meals fun for my family. They enjoy when I take a few extra minutes in order to spice it up a bit. I like the look on their face when they walk into the kitchen and see something so simple and think it’s so great. I get most of my ideas from different restaurants and I think of the fun ways they serve their meals and then recreate it at home.

The recreation today was broccoli cheese soup with a bread bowl.

Ingredients -Makes 6 soup bowls

20 minutes to prep and 20 minutes to cook

  • 1 large onion
  • 2 cups carrots
  • 2 cups of milk
  • 2 cups chicken stock
  • 2 heads of broccoli (florets only)
  • 1 stalk of celery
  • 2 cups sharp cheddar cheese
  • seasonings Salt and pepper
  • 2 tbs butter
  • 3 tbs olive oil
  • 3 tbs flour

I love to go to the store and hope that they are out of the bread that I want so they can make it fresh. If I ask they will do it regardless. They treat me well because I’m always there.

In a small pan pour in olive oil and saute the onion. Cook for 5 minutes until it is translucent. In a large pan add flour and butter until blended. Add in milk, stock, onions, and all the other diced vegetables. I use a food processor because I prefer small pieces of vegetables in my soup. Season lightly with salt and pepper and let simmer for 20. Add cheese and serve when melted.

Cut the bread bowl in a circle and take the top off. Pull a small amount of the bread out from the inside and start filling it up with your delicious soup.

You could have chosen any blog to read but you chose mine and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~

 

The Best Broccoli​ Cheese Sou

It’s cold outside and we all need something warm to eat. I can’t think of anything better right now than soup. But let’s make it fun and skip using a bowl for our soup. Follow me into the kitchen to see what I mean.

So,  I love to make my meals fun for my family. They enjoy when I take a few extra minutes in order to spice it up a bit. I like the look on their face when they walk into the kitchen and see something so simple and think it’s so great. I get most of my ideas from different restaurants and I think of the fun ways they serve their meals and then recreate it at home.

The recreation today was broccoli cheese soup with a bread bowl.

Ingredients -Makes 6 soup bowls

20 minutes to prep and 20 minutes to cook

  • 1 large onion
  • 2 cups carrots
  • 2 cups of milk
  • 2 cups chicken stock
  • 2 heads of broccoli (florets only)
  • 1 stalk of celery
  • 2 cups sharp cheddar cheese
  • seasonings Salt and pepper
  • 2 tbs butter
  • 3 tbs olive oil
  • 3 tbs flour

I love to go to the store and hope that they are out of the bread that I want so they can make it fresh. If I ask they will do it regardless. They treat me well because I’m always there.

In a small pan pour in olive oil and saute the onion. Cook for 5 minutes until it is translucent. In a large pan add flour and butter until blended. Add in milk, stock, onions, and all the other diced vegetables. I use a food processor because I prefer small pieces of vegetables in my soup. Season lightly with salt and pepper and let simmer for 20. Add cheese and serve when melted.

Cut the bread bowl in a circle and take the top off. Pull a small amount of the bread out from the inside and start filling it up with your delicious soup.

You could have chosen any blog to read but you chose mine and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~

 

One Year Down…​Thank You For Giving Me A Chance

It has officially been 1 year since I started this particular blog and I have been welcomed into the blog world with open arms. I have to admit that every time I write something I second guess myself. I wonder if it’s interesting enough to get you to come back and view another post. I always try to just be myself and that alone is scary.

I remember when I first started my blog I was approached by a well known public figure and he gave me THE BEST pointer. He told me if I wanted my blog to be successive then I had to remain truthful to myself. Choose topics that hit me deep in my core and then just go. Talk the way I do every day, and make sure my personality is present at all times. When he told me this I said well what if people don’t like me or what I have to say?

He responded, “Do you have friends”? “Do they like to engage with you”? “After 17 years does your husband still like you and engage with you”? But most importantly “Do you like you and find yourself interesting”? I thought fair enough!

So here we go! My content is going to be bananas this year, filled with food, diets, crafts, workouts, real talk, and my Life. I am elated to welcome you all to my world.

I know that there are thousands and thousands of blogs that you could have joined or read but you chose mine and I’m honored!

~Belladonna~

Not Your Grannies Meatballs

Whenever I think about meatballs I’m like umm no thanks! They always look so dry. Which is why I hate meatloaf and meatballs are right up there in the same category. Well, they use to be but now I am in love with meatballs. I was determined to find a way to make a good meatball sandwich or pasta and meatballs. So guess where I found it? if you said Pinterest then you were right.

I have been trying to find more Keto inspired dishes. I can do without the carbs in the evening but my family shouldn’t have to. Keto dishes makes life so easy for me. If you look back at some of my meals you will see that I have provided the option of keeping your dish totally Keto or adding carbs.

Not only do I have to cook Keto and non-Keto dinners but I also cook for a pescatarian.  My trick is t make enough of each meal that will last for two days. Leftovers are a must in this house.

Without further ado lets move on to the meal.

OK, here is option #1 Huge sub rolls for my carb babies

Option #2 meatballs and salad for me. I like plain Caesar salad if I’m having a saucy dish.

And option #3 vegan meatless sausage for my vegetarian baby.

Whew! Let’s get these Ingredients out

Will make 12-14 medium meatballs 

Will make 5-6 medium vegan meatballs 

  • 1-pounds of ground beef
  • 2 tbsp Basil
  • 1 tbs Garlic Powder
  • 2 tbs Oregano
  • 2 tbsp Pepper
  • 1 cup Mozzarella Cheese
  • 1 cup Cheddar Cheese
  • 1/2 cup Parmesan Cheese
  • 1/2 Vegan Meatless Sausage roll

In a large bowl can buying your meat seasonings and all of your cheese. Mix it all up and form the balls into your desired size.

Place in a nonstick pan that is coated with extra virgin olive oil on the bottom. Place the meatballs with a small space in between each one. Cook on 375° for 20 to 25 minutes.

At this point, you can either eat the meatballs with a salad or from my carb lovers have it with pasta or a meatball sub.

If you choose to make a meatball sub make sure you remove a little of the bread on the inside so the meatballs will be able to fit properly. Then place three meatballs inside of the sub sprinkle cheese on top and bake for five minutes.

Please refer to the post below on how to make pasta sauce.

http://belladonnasflashlight.blog/2018/10/22/how-i-amped-up-my-pasta-sauce/

Enjoy the short video MEATBALL TIME!

You could have chosen any blog to read but you chose mine and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~