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Today was an overall exhausting day for her, she felt like everything she tried to do at work fell apart and collapsed all over her entire existence. She wanted to just go home, strip down to nothing as she locked her front door, and headed to her bathroom.
Well, wait, she would go to the kitchen first to pour a cold glass of wine and pop the butteriest bag of popcorn.
She saved those bags for stressful days Read More
I fell in love with a man that fell in love with the real me.
There she was just sitting with her friends, laughing her usual loud and excitable laugh. I think when she laughs, the whole world knows that it’s her. She has tried to change it and learned how to do a light, soft chuckle, but that didn’t last long. Mostly because it hurt her chest when she tried to hold in the true her. Read More
It’s a new dawn, a new day and time to celebrate. I am on cloud nine for my birthday this year and why shouldn’t I be? I made it another year and have a clean bill of health. I am officially a 43-year-old woman, Read More
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Waking up with the sun beating down on her face and the smell of pineapples, strawberries, and kiwi is in the air. The palm trees are blowing ever so slightly. If you just stand still, breathe deep and slow you will see them move. The sound of people laughing and carrying natural and uplifting conversations are heard as they walk past your room. The energy is positive, and hope is in the air. Read More
….and I don’t mind💗
Back in the day, I thought using the L word would make me vulnerable and wide open for heartbreak. I was always like… I love you, but I don’t love you, love. There are levels to this ish, and you’re just on level one boo.
All we want is to be seen and heard. You may not agree with everything we are saying and that’s okay just acknowledge that fact that we are here. Some so many ladies will go through their entire life and not know what it’s like to be listened to. As well as being left to wonder if they are being seen or looked over. Yeah, you have said the L word but what does that mean without putting actions behind it.
Beneath all my flaws lies perfection. Beneath everything that I am trying to cover up lies my truth. But I’m afraid that my truth will cause you to leave in a panic and never look my way again. Because of my fear of losing you, I’ll be who you desire me to be. forgetting all of my lies so that I can pretend to be your truth. But now I’m losing me and my delusion mixed with my reality is becoming much more than I can handle. I’m forgetting what I’m supposed to like and what I’m supposed to say because they aren’t authentically my thoughts or perceptions.
How many of us are afraid to show who we really are? We can live behind masks for the rest of our lives, but will that make you happy? I know that we all want to find love and that somebody that will love us unconditionally and tells us that we are beautiful.
You know what I mean?
It means so much when you don’t have to fish for compliments and continue to say, do you like my hair, my outfit, can you tell that I’ve been diligent with my workouts?
As a woman, one of the things that I want is the ability to feel free. I need that sense of freedom to feel comfortable with just being me. Comfortable in my own skin and still have you love me. I want to rip down all the walls that I’m hiding behind and know that you won’t look at me differently.
The joy I feel when washing my face is indescribable and then followed up with putting on baggy shorts with an oversized shirt that has now been a part of my life longer than I want to remember.
But it’s too comfortable to throw away!
You know you’re looking at a hot mess, but he still says your beautiful.
Your hair is all over your head looking like a bird’s nest, but he still wants you to lie your head on his chest because he knows that’s your security blanket.
Being able to expose your insecurities without regret. But feeling relieved because that someone is giving you strength and courage to conquer whatever your goals are.
Making you believe that you can do any and everything your heart desires. Helping you push all of your fears and anxieties elsewhere.
Being able to have that somebody that will give you the tools that are necessary to tear down the walls that you named flaws and reveal your truth, your perfect reality.
Enabling you to be unapologetically naked!
You could have chosen to read any blog, but you chose mine, and I’m honored.