Coaching, Deception, and Love Stories…Oh My

I’ve been on this earth for 43 years. In those 43 years, I have completed elementary school, middle school, high school, military life, college, more college, and raised 3 kids. In that time I’ve come in contact with thousands and thousands of people.

However, in the last 5 years, I’ve come across the worse of, the worse. In my years of personal training, I found myself coaching 5 women that were “close friends” to each other. A 6th was on the way, but I put an end to almost all of the sessions before she had a chance to join my program. Read More

You’re My Queen

Her day was all about meetings and schedule more for the next day. She continually tries to stay two steps ahead of her male coworkers. If she doesn’t, they will notice and quickly confront her and their VP of her downfalls. She regularly feels that she is being watched, and everyone is waiting for her to make one questionable move. So far, they have nothing to see but the back of her ass as she climbs the corporate ladder. Read More

Cut The Weight​

Sometimes the weight you need to lose isn’t your own.  I’ve spent my entire life around toxic energy. I can’t think of one time in my life when I haven’t dealt with someone that secretly rooted for the worse possible outcome over my life. If you allow those same toxic people to remain in your life, then you will not work to your full capability. Read More

Gratitude! 1018 Views

I welcome everyone new to Belladonna’s Flashlight and for everyone else, Thank you for staying! I hope you enjoy being apart of the fam and will continue to read and join in on discussions. I love hearing from you all. Read More

One Last Cry…​Maybe?

I’m having a moment today, and the tears are streaming down my entire existence. It is happening more and more, and I can’t control it, so I figure let me put on a sad song and look at old pictures so I can really enjoy my cry. Read More

You Can’t Rescue The Boy In The Man “Part 1”

All I remember is it being deathly silent on the phone. I thought she had fallen asleep. So there I lay on the couch under the covers in a slightly dark room with only the light sound of the t.v. going. By this time it was 2 o’clock in the morning, and we started our conversation at 11:00 pm. I’m not quite sure how long it was since we last talked but we had a lot to catch up on. Our conversation went from politics to food, health, fitness, raising kids, marriage, and reminiscing about our old selves. Read More

Why Coming From a Broken Home May B​e Better Than Living In One “Part 2″​

Sometimes you have to take a step back and reflect over the things you desired to change as a child and make a conscious decision to not let history repeat itself. It’s not easy to walk away from someone you love and let go of what you want the relationship to be. Allowing yourself to let go of the living happily ever after can feel like a punch in the stomach and a knife in your heart. Read More

The Day I Fell In Love “Part 2”

The Day I Fell In Love “Part 1”

I felt so light on my feet and thought I was going to tumble over. Somehow I managed to stand firm, but just like that, it was time for me to get back to the game and pretend to be interested in cheerleading. I was so ready to be done for the night and try to find Elijah again. I knew that I wouldn’t say anything else to him, I would just find a safe spot to take A quick peak without him knowing. Read More

The Truth About The First 5 Years Of Marriage And How To Make It Through​

I didn’t think that we would make it this far. For years I thought we should have waited until we were in our 30’s instead of in our early 20’s to get married. But then I started to interact with others that found love late in life, and they experienced some of the same issues we did, and some were exponentially worse. So in some strange way that was comforting for me to know. Read More

He Fell In Love With Her Loud Laugh

I fell in love with a man that fell in love with the real me.

There she was just sitting with her friends, laughing her usual loud and excitable laugh. I think when she laughs, the whole world knows that it’s her. She has tried to change it and learned how to do a light, soft chuckle, but that didn’t last long. Mostly because it hurt her chest when she tried to hold in the true her. Read More