Because I Love Me

Because I love me so much I want to make this clear

Keeping you there while I stay here is what I find necessary

Making sure that my world remains absolute

The problems that appear are the ones that I create

No manipulation took place

Because I love me

I know that forgiveness needs to take place

Not for you but for me so I can persuade peace to come back in my life

Living stress-free and not allowing you to mess with my anxiety

Blowing the whistle and sounding the alarm

Because I Love Me

You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~

 

 

Our Love Trickles

It’s dark outside

the air is cold

I can feel the Christmas weather freezing my nose

My hands are so stiff that I can barely feel them

When someone touches them it shocks pain into my entire existence

But when I close my eyes all I feel is warmth

I smell fruit and lavender and my toes feel like they’re in sand

everything about the earth feels like a comforting day in July

My stress is on vacation and I am celebrating life

With you by my side I’m left with pride

Your love is what I hold dear

even though it’s what I used to fear

Now I see thier smiles

the bond they share

When we are both gone

Our love will live on

You could have chosen to read any blog but you chose mine and I’m honored.

~Belladonna

Gratitude! 1018 Views

I welcome everyone new to Belladonna’s Flashlight and for everyone else, Thank you for staying! I hope you enjoy being apart of the fam and will continue to read and join in on discussions. I love hearing from you all. Read More

Rare Lady Of Mine

I woke up to sunshine, and it quickly turned into rain and then thunder joined in. All of the chaos outside brought peace and calmness over my entire body. I sat Indian style on my bed in this newly built beautiful hotel room, that was covered with modern designs and plush white covers excitedly daydreaming about the events to come in the next few hours. I was about to marry my best friend, the one that God custom made just for me. Read More

Are you Okay?

All she can feel is the weight of the world on her shoulders and the breath of temptation breathing heavy on her neck. She can feel the sun beating down on her skin scorching every part of her that’s exposed. When she rises, everything goes black, Read More

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Follow me to a place that will offer you insight on finance, health, meal ideas, and motherhood. I have stumbled my way through life, and along the journey, I found answers.

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It Doesn’t Matter What I See

I don’t think I have ever seen anyone with a more beautiful smile. When you walk into the room everyone lights up and can feel your energy. It’s indescribable how you make others want to better. Your style and grace are like no other. 

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Truth Is

Truth is I feel too hard, and I let my emotions get the best of me. I use to sit and stare at nothing for hours and just wonder where I went wrong. Like why don’t you love me like you should? What did I do wrong to make you look over, under and around me? Never looking straight into my soul. Read More

Will You Ride The Bus With Me

Lots of people want to ride with you in your Limo but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when your Limo breaks down.

~Oprah Winfrey~

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Resting Bitch Face

You call it a resting bitch face and assume that I must be one. I call it not wasting my energy and time on your pointless conversation. The art of being blunt and not sitting idle while patiently listening to garbage but you call them words. Having me walk away and knowing that you’re talking about me like you did the others. So to you, I give the resting bitch face

I allowed you to trick me once or twice possible 3 but now I see you for what you are, I’m not mad just confused on when you learned to act. You still have people fooled into thinking that your intentions are good and that I’m the one that’s collapsed. Questioning who I am and what I stand for. Started out thinking that maybe I need to clear the air and get somethings straight. But I quickly composed myself and gave this whole situation my resting bitch face.

No longer wasting time on wondering what pictures are being passed around of me and leaving me the joke of your day. I hope you laughed and laughed hard. I know that you were secretly hoping that I would fall and lose everything that I have. Wanting everything that I love to stop loving me. So I know you hate what you see. You staring at me while I’m staring ahead at my next preplanned and bulletproof move. No smiles just focus with my face resting kind of bitch like.

I’m stuck in my zone and no longer focusing on the foggy and unstable. Uncontrollable impulses aren’t my concern. I know you think your words were unheard since a reaction is what you didn’t get. But I heard you it’s just my health, and peace of mind is my concern. Ignoring the outrageous have truly helped put years back on my life. No longer treading in muddy waters. But poised on my thrown and not shouting back. Not letting you drain me and murder my thoughts. Not today or any other day. But I will give you my resting bitch face and then slowly twirl away.

Getting your health in check just balances everything else out. When you are eating right your mind works differently and you lack the desire to allow poisonous behavior to enter into your life. Your energy will make it uncomfortable for negative spirits to be around. Your mind and focus is something that an unhealthy mind can’t fathom.

External as well internal change will occur after a week or two of eating right, meditating, sleeping longer, and working out. If you carry any type of mental hurt or anxieties then I beg for you to focus on your health and lean on me if you need help. My desire is to make as many people feel whole and to perfect that resting bitch face.