I Am Whatever You Say I Am

Learning to handle a situation like a grown-up can be challenging. Invariably fighting to not have the last word is a struggle for many people, including me. If I feel like I’m being attacked with your thoughts of me, then I automatically feel the need to protect myself and explain.

The explanation usually consists of me telling you why you shouldn’t feel the way you feel about me. Truth be told, I’m guilty of wanting to be liked. Read More

Gratitude! 1018 Views

I welcome everyone new to Belladonna’s Flashlight and for everyone else, Thank you for staying! I hope you enjoy being apart of the fam and will continue to read and join in on discussions. I love hearing from you all. Read More

You Can’t Rescue The Boy In The Man “Part 1”

All I remember is it being deathly silent on the phone. I thought she had fallen asleep. So there I lay on the couch under the covers in a slightly dark room with only the light sound of the t.v. going. By this time it was 2 o’clock in the morning, and we started our conversation at 11:00 pm. I’m not quite sure how long it was since we last talked but we had a lot to catch up on. Our conversation went from politics to food, health, fitness, raising kids, marriage, and reminiscing about our old selves. Read More

Why Coming From a Broken Home May B​e Better Than Living In One “Part 2″​

Sometimes you have to take a step back and reflect over the things you desired to change as a child and make a conscious decision to not let history repeat itself. It’s not easy to walk away from someone you love and let go of what you want the relationship to be. Allowing yourself to let go of the living happily ever after can feel like a punch in the stomach and a knife in your heart. Read More

The Day I Fell In Love “Part 2”

The Day I Fell In Love “Part 1”

I felt so light on my feet and thought I was going to tumble over. Somehow I managed to stand firm, but just like that, it was time for me to get back to the game and pretend to be interested in cheerleading. I was so ready to be done for the night and try to find Elijah again. I knew that I wouldn’t say anything else to him, I would just find a safe spot to take A quick peak without him knowing. Read More

The Day I Fell In Love “Part 1”

I fell for a kid with a dream, a smile that never quits, and a pure heart. He stood about 6 feet tall, 170 pounds, always kept a clean fade, he had a different pair of sneakers on every day. Did I mention that he smelled like a dream and his attire was carefully picked out? Read More

The Truth About The First 5 Years Of Marriage And How To Make It Through​

I didn’t think that we would make it this far. For years I thought we should have waited until we were in our 30’s instead of in our early 20’s to get married. But then I started to interact with others that found love late in life, and they experienced some of the same issues we did, and some were exponentially worse. So in some strange way that was comforting for me to know. Read More

Rare Lady Of Mine

I woke up to sunshine, and it quickly turned into rain and then thunder joined in. All of the chaos outside brought peace and calmness over my entire body. I sat Indian style on my bed in this newly built beautiful hotel room, that was covered with modern designs and plush white covers excitedly daydreaming about the events to come in the next few hours. I was about to marry my best friend, the one that God custom made just for me. Read More