Let Me Clear My Throat

Before I go any further let me say this. Yes, I will be cooking again but let me get out of my feelings first. I am a woman on edge and, I will throw a tomato or an onion at someone right now. Read More

Misery Loves Company

So you thought that she would let you come into her life and drag her down to your level? So you thought that It would be easy to get her to swallow predigested thoughts and feelings? I bet she surprised you…huh? You see, when God made her, he made a force, a tornado, a tsunami. The only thing that can control and move her….IS HER. Her strength will either scare you or motivate you. Read More

Love Wins

….and I don’t mind💗

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Back in the day, I thought using the L word would make me vulnerable and wide open for heartbreak. I was always like… I love you, but I don’t love you, love. There are levels to this ish, and you’re just on level one boo.

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Do You See Me

All we want is to be seen and heard. You may not agree with everything we are saying and that’s okay just acknowledge that fact that we are here. Some so many ladies will go through their entire life and not know what it’s like to be listened to. As well as being left to wonder if they are being seen or looked over. Yeah, you have said the L word but what does that mean without putting actions behind it.

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Will You Ride The Bus With Me

Lots of people want to ride with you in your Limo but what you want is someone who will take the bus with you when your Limo breaks down.

~Oprah Winfrey~

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The Best Revenge Is Living Well

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How many times have you heard someone say that stress can kill you? I have heard that too many times and I’ve lost count. I was always thought that it was dumbest expression and even to this day I don’t like saying it. I know I don’t like repeating it because it was always stated without an educated explanation. However, over the years, I have dedicated my life to helping people lose weight and in some cases gain weight. Throughout both journeys trials and tribulations will come and you have to learn how to properly handle each one in order to live well. Read More

Resting Bitch Face

You call it a resting bitch face and assume that I must be one. I call it not wasting my energy and time on your pointless conversation. The art of being blunt and not sitting idle while patiently listening to garbage but you call them words. Having me walk away and knowing that you’re talking about me like you did the others. So to you, I give the resting bitch face

I allowed you to trick me once or twice possible 3 but now I see you for what you are, I’m not mad just confused on when you learned to act. You still have people fooled into thinking that your intentions are good and that I’m the one that’s collapsed. Questioning who I am and what I stand for. Started out thinking that maybe I need to clear the air and get somethings straight. But I quickly composed myself and gave this whole situation my resting bitch face.

No longer wasting time on wondering what pictures are being passed around of me and leaving me the joke of your day. I hope you laughed and laughed hard. I know that you were secretly hoping that I would fall and lose everything that I have. Wanting everything that I love to stop loving me. So I know you hate what you see. You staring at me while I’m staring ahead at my next preplanned and bulletproof move. No smiles just focus with my face resting kind of bitch like.

I’m stuck in my zone and no longer focusing on the foggy and unstable. Uncontrollable impulses aren’t my concern. I know you think your words were unheard since a reaction is what you didn’t get. But I heard you it’s just my health, and peace of mind is my concern. Ignoring the outrageous have truly helped put years back on my life. No longer treading in muddy waters. But poised on my thrown and not shouting back. Not letting you drain me and murder my thoughts. Not today or any other day. But I will give you my resting bitch face and then slowly twirl away.

Getting your health in check just balances everything else out. When you are eating right your mind works differently and you lack the desire to allow poisonous behavior to enter into your life. Your energy will make it uncomfortable for negative spirits to be around. Your mind and focus is something that an unhealthy mind can’t fathom.

External as well internal change will occur after a week or two of eating right, meditating, sleeping longer, and working out. If you carry any type of mental hurt or anxieties then I beg for you to focus on your health and lean on me if you need help. My desire is to make as many people feel whole and to perfect that resting bitch face.

Love Me Naked

Beneath all my flaws lies perfection. Beneath everything that I am trying to cover up lies my truth. But I’m afraid that my truth will cause you to leave in a panic and never look my way again. Because of my fear of losing you, I’ll be who you desire me to be. forgetting all of my lies so that I can pretend to be your truth. But now I’m losing me and my delusion mixed with my reality is becoming much more than I can handle. I’m forgetting what I’m supposed to like and what I’m supposed to say because they aren’t authentically my thoughts or perceptions.

How many of us are afraid to show who we really are? We can live behind masks for the rest of our lives, but will that make you happy? I know that we all want to find love and that somebody that will love us unconditionally and tells us that we are beautiful.

You know what I mean?

It means so much when you don’t have to fish for compliments and continue to say, do you like my hair, my outfit, can you tell that I’ve been diligent with my workouts?

As a woman, one of the things that I want is the ability to feel free. I need that sense of freedom to feel comfortable with just being me. Comfortable in my own skin and still have you love me. I want to rip down all the walls that I’m hiding behind and know that you won’t look at me differently.

The joy I feel when washing my face is indescribable and then followed up with putting on baggy shorts with an oversized shirt that has now been a part of my life longer than I want to remember.

But it’s too comfortable to throw away!

You know you’re looking at a hot mess, but he still says your beautiful.

Your hair is all over your head looking like a bird’s nest, but he still wants you to lie your head on his chest because he knows that’s your security blanket.

Being able to expose your insecurities without regret. But feeling relieved because that someone is giving you strength and courage to conquer whatever your goals are.

Making you believe that you can do any and everything your heart desires. Helping you push all of your fears and anxieties elsewhere.

Being able to have that somebody that will give you the tools that are necessary to tear down the walls that you named flaws and reveal your truth, your perfect reality.

Enabling you to be unapologetically naked!

You could have chosen to read any blog, but you chose mine, and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~