Operation Get Your Life Together

Do you feel like your life is a mess? I’m talking about you and you alone. Not your children or your husband, just you.

If you said yes, then know that you aren’t alone. Read More

A Stranger In My Bed

One day I was lying in bed and was looked at my husband while he was sleeping. He was sleeping so good like he didn’t have a care in the world.

I was so jealous! Read More

Loving Who You Are

In order to change yourself, you have to LOVE yourself. Respecting where you are in your life is the most significant step you have to take to evolve. The day that you take a good look at all, your blessings are the day that you can create a better life. Being ashamed of the way you look and how much weight your carrying is the absolute wrong approach. Read More

Checking On The Check

 

My husband always says, “Checking on the check.” He says this whenever he is checking on anything and making sure it is what it’s supposed to be. I have to admit that I steal most of his sayings because they usually make a lot of sense. But this one is my favorite. I found myself saying it when I’m checking out my gains or lack thereof. Read More

Just My Imagination

I wonder if I change my deposition would you choose to be by my side? It’s been so long since you chose me. Thinking back I don’t think you ever have. I longed for you to and I think for a second I imagined you did. My imagination ran away from me and formed a picture that I longed to see.

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A Fool’s Game

This world is cold and half the people that you believe care about you, really have malicious intentions. We live in a world that takes the word reality off of the map. We strive for instant gratification and praise the most peculiar behavior. Read More

My Sunday

Stick a fork in me cause I’m done! I didn’t sleep that well last night because I had some pretty disturbing dreams. Have you ever dreamt that you were attending a loved one’s funeral? Read More

Love Me Naked

Beneath all my flaws lies perfection. Beneath everything that I am trying to cover up lies my truth. But I’m afraid that my truth will cause you to leave in a panic and never look my way again. Because of my fear of losing you, I’ll be who you desire me to be. forgetting all of my lies so that I can pretend to be your truth. But now I’m losing me and my delusion mixed with my reality is becoming much more than I can handle. I’m forgetting what I’m supposed to like and what I’m supposed to say because they aren’t authentically my thoughts or perceptions.

How many of us are afraid to show who we really are? We can live behind masks for the rest of our lives, but will that make you happy? I know that we all want to find love and that somebody that will love us unconditionally and tells us that we are beautiful.

You know what I mean?

It means so much when you don’t have to fish for compliments and continue to say, do you like my hair, my outfit, can you tell that I’ve been diligent with my workouts?

As a woman, one of the things that I want is the ability to feel free. I need that sense of freedom to feel comfortable with just being me. Comfortable in my own skin and still have you love me. I want to rip down all the walls that I’m hiding behind and know that you won’t look at me differently.

The joy I feel when washing my face is indescribable and then followed up with putting on baggy shorts with an oversized shirt that has now been a part of my life longer than I want to remember.

But it’s too comfortable to throw away!

You know you’re looking at a hot mess, but he still says your beautiful.

Your hair is all over your head looking like a bird’s nest, but he still wants you to lie your head on his chest because he knows that’s your security blanket.

Being able to expose your insecurities without regret. But feeling relieved because that someone is giving you strength and courage to conquer whatever your goals are.

Making you believe that you can do any and everything your heart desires. Helping you push all of your fears and anxieties elsewhere.

Being able to have that somebody that will give you the tools that are necessary to tear down the walls that you named flaws and reveal your truth, your perfect reality.

Enabling you to be unapologetically naked!

You could have chosen to read any blog, but you chose mine, and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~