This year I want to touch on Motherhood, Parenting, and all it entails. I’m going to expose the good side, the not-so-attractive side. Parenting isn’t for the weak, nor is it for the spineless. But, no matter how tough parenting gets, you HAVE to hold on because it gets easier.
I have always carried self-doubt. From time to time, I’ve doubted if I was good enough and wondered if I could step up to the plate and be a good mom.
I hope I’m not alone here!
When I found out that I was pregnant with my first child, I only felt fear. I didn’t want to disappoint this little person. She needed me to be strong, and she needed me to love her unconditionally.
I doubted that I would be who she needed me to be and that, in the end, I would break her heart. Leave her wanting everything and anything that I wasn’t. But over the years, I pushed all my insecurities aside and gave motherhood my all.
Love moved in. Not just any love, but I would die for you type of love.
Then over the years, God blessed me with two more beautiful humans to love. Along with those babies came a tremendous amount of love. But, once again, I doubted if I had enough love to spread to two more humans. I was scared out of my mind that I would give one of them more love than the others.
So many parents have a favorite child, and I despise that!
I refused to be that person. And after 21 years of motherhood, my kids can tell you that I love them equally. When one gets in trouble, they all get in trouble. I expect all three to do their absolute best in all they choose to do.
I am undoubtedly their number-one fan.
I would choose to take my last breath if that meant they could live.
Being a mom will expose all of your insecurities, fears, and doubt that you didn’t know you had. But the key is to approach it with an open heart and the mindset of; I am a perfect mess. AND be okay with that!
You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored!