The act of looking after yourself looks and feels different for everyone.
To one person looking at yourself may mean sleeping in later, getting a new hairstyle or color change, starting a new diet, or buying new clothes. On the other hand, perhaps it means just sitting in your house alone and enjoying the silence.
How I’ve been feeling for the past two weeks
For the past couple of weeks, I’ve been having the damndest time trying to shake this depressing feeling. I didn’t know why I was feeling down on myself and creating such a negative space for myself. But today, as I sat in my room and dealt with my silence, I realized why I felt incomplete.
I’m a mom before I’m anything else, and if I’m not giving parenting my everything, then I feel like a failure. When I became a mom, I wanted to give my kids everything I yearned for, and I did. However, now that two of my kiddos are in college, I can’t reach out and touch them, nor can I sit and stare at them like I LOVE to do.
My son is having his second football game today, and boy, oh boy, is it breaking me not to be there. With his games being 14 hours away and on Friday, we have to pick and choose which games we can attend. Next year he’ll play on Saturday, so that will literally be a game changer for us.
It’s killing me that I can’t cheer him on tonight. But be ready for me to flood you all with pictures when I attend his next four games. Yes, my husband, and I will be the loudest and countriest parents his college has ever seen.
How I looked after myself today
Since I have been feeling all sorts of blue, I decided I needed to step outside my typical Friday routine and do something that would make me come out of this slump.
Retail therapy was the name of the game. However, I couldn’t find any clothes or purses I liked, so I went to Hobby Lobby. And I was saved!!!
I bought the cutest coffee mug, and the biggest smile spread across my entire face when I saw it. I haven’t had a cup this big since I was in college. I loved that mug, and I feel that someone broke it on purpose. BUT anyway. I remembered I needed more wax melts, so I mosied over and picked a few up.
But as I looked through the different names of the melts and smelled them, I came across one that read UPLIFT. When I smelled it, I felt just that, uplifted and renewed.
It helped me
My new coffee cup and wax melts will never replace the joy I feel when cheering my son on, but they helped me!
How do you look after yourself?
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