I’m not what I used to be

Plot twist!

I’m not what I used to be, but then again, I never was who I thought I was, and that’s refreshing.

Why do we say, “oh, I can’t run like that anymore because I’m not what I used to be”? But in all reality, were you ever that great at running? Maybe some of us were, but the vast majority of us were not. I’m using running as an example, but you can plug in any activity in its place.

Running is clearly not my point, but the point is, were we ever what we thought we were? Or perhaps we are exaggerating in hopes that we believe our own lie.


The other day I was trying to nail a pirouette, and I kept falling too soon to my left side, and I thought, man, I used to be so good at this. So maybe if I keep practicing, I will return to where I was when I was 18. 

Okay, NEWS FLASH I will never be as good as I was when I was 18, and now that I think about I wasn’t shit back then. My pirouettes were HORRIBLE! My professors would make me do them over and over and over. They would result in yelling at me and tell me to practice until my feet bled. 

When they would say that, I would think, “you must be a fool if you think I’m going to do that.” 


I’m lying to myself when I think I was once a pro, or better yet, I’m making excuses as to why I shouldn’t continue trying to do my best. No, I’m not 18 anymore, but I’m better now at many more things than my 18-year-old self, and so are you.

I’ve noticed I’m not living in the glory days all alone. So I’m speaking as the mayor of glory day town when I say: We are all currently residing in our glory days; enjoy this moment. Embrace who you are and recognize all the things you can still accomplish. Today is your glory day, not five, ten, or twenty-plus years ago.




You might not be who you used to be, but then again, were you ever?

Plot twist!

You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored!


36 Replies to “I’m not what I used to be”

  1. Wise perspective, Belladonna. And I admire how you brought me around full circle here.
    Today is all that matters. It’s today we need to concentrate on.
    Thank you.

  2. Guurrrrllllll…speak! 🙆🏽‍♀️ Love this “Embrace who you are and recognize all the things you can still accomplish.” What motivation. Thanks for the age reminder sistah! 😝😂😜

  3. Well said. May have done cross country but you can’t dwell on the past. I think as you get older and wiser you get a bit cynical cause you are across so much more. What do they say “old age and treachery overcomes youth and skill”

  4. That image! 😂 “… the mayor of glory day town” 🤣 Nothing about being 18 was “glory days” for me. I am living my best life NOW! 😊 Fun post, Belladonna. 😄

  5. My life is one plot twist after another. It used to infuriate me, but now I say “whatevs” and move on, keeping in mind that I am, indeed, still moving.

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