I Hate That Empty Room

I may need a prayer circle around me for Monday morning’s move.

I often wonder if dropping my daughter off at school will get easier. I’m hoping so because last year I was a wreck.

When it came time to say goodbye, I lost it. And I was doing so well before my meltdown. I stayed so calm and moved all of her belongings into the dorm room; then we decorated.

We laughed and talked the entire time, and I was hoping that time would slow down.

All parents were given two hours to help their child before we had to go and make room for the other college kids moving in. Well, my two hours went by way too quickly, and before I knew it, my time was up, and I was forced to say goodbye to my baby girl.

When I looked at her face, all I saw was the little girl that use to hide behind a see-through curtain when we played hide and seek. She would always be so tickled as we looked for her and pretended we didn’t see her.

Knowing how she thinks now, she was probably thinking, “my parents are idiots; how can they not see me?”

I remember bringing that story up to her as we looked out of her dorm window.

Then, suddenly, I folded my last towel, and there was nothing left for me to do but say goodbye… I grabbed her and said, ” I’m so sorry, but I need to let go of my emotions before I get in my car.

When I laid on her shoulder, I felt like the child, in need of comforting words. And to be told that everything will be okay.

I cried, and I cried, and I cried so more!

I love my baby girl, and I’m so damn proud of her. Saying goodbye will always be challenging. And I will always hate walking past her empty room.

You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored!

~Belladonna~

50 Replies to “I Hate That Empty Room”

  1. Growing into and growing up as a parent comes with tearful challenges for the things we must do and the choices we must make.
    Separation hit me in the solar plexus. Today time and again I feel the pain.

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      1. You’re not kidding.. our dog is part pit bull, part ridgeback, and both are pretty intimidating looking dogs. But, I kid you not, this ridiculously loveable creature is a giant marshmallow.
        Chihuahuas? Well.. It’s always the little ones you have to look out for! 🤭😆

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  2. Oh, how I remember that moment with my oldest daughter! I kept my feelings in check up until the last moment when my baby was all set up in her dorm room and it was time to leave. Big ((hugs)) for you! It’s part of a mom’s job to let go and let them fly, but that doesn’t make the sadness easier. Cry when you need to, Mama, but don’t forget to pat yourself on the back for the great job you did. Your baby’s in college!

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  3. Big hugs to you. I have gone through this as well, but with my 2 sons. I came home by myself to an empty house which had always been full of life, even after the ex-hubs left. It was a challenge at first, but I tried to think of it as a new chapter for us all…

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