Shameless

I wish I could say that I’m surprised, but I’m not. I don’t believe that people can make drastic changes when it comes to habits and personality traits that they refuse to recognize. You can’t change something until you are honest with yourself about your problem. For years I wondered what it would take to make someone wake up and see all the things they are missing and break there neck to take part in the positive energy.

It’s funny, but I can literally feel shameless energy shift, and I become the target. I call it shameless because it happens without explanation and has a cowardly appearance to it. About 20, even 8 years ago I would take that shift so personal, but with age I see it coming from a mile away.

By the time the shift hits me, I could care less unless you are someone that should mean more to me than someone I just met. I expect absolutely nothing from friends, especially women. As a woman, I can admit that most of us are emotionally all over the place, and I expect the majority of those folks to pleasantly disappear, and I look forward to it. However, a family should be concrete, and I’m always more than a little disappointed with they continue to show me who they are, and I keep forgetting how shameless they are.

My husband has a who cares type attitude and can shrug things off and stay in his own positive world. I have never seen him upset nor heard him say a word about a family member’s non-existence presence. He always says you can’t expect someone to do what you would do and after 18 years I finally agree.

My husband has always been the father that he deserved to have, and knowing that he gives all of himself to his kids is enough for him. Sometimes I sit and just stare at him because I admire the way he can move on without anger or disappointment. He keeps his expectations of certain folks so low, and when they show just how shameless they can be, he cracks a joke about it and chuckles. All my kids got that gene from him.

I don’t have that gene. But I sure do admire them all for having it.

Shameless behavior refuses to phase them!

You could have chosen any blog to read, but you chose mine, and I’m honored.

~Belladonna~

 

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