I absolutely hate when I get like this. Almost too embarrassed to write this but we all have flaws….right? I’m hoping that you said yes. I have this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach and I know why it’s there I just don’t know how to fix it. Every time I smile or someone makes me smile I quickly return to feeling uneasy.
My heart is yearning to give in but my soul won’t allow me too. My feelings have been ripped and tossed aside so many times that I don’t think I would recover as well next time. It has taken me years to get to this safe place in my life. I have screamed, cried, broke things, talked through my feelings, wrote letters, and most of all prayed.
If you never had your heart broken then you will not understand my struggle. There are so many things that are out of our control and we can literally helplessly watch the unfortunate events take place. But when it comes to our heart and peace of my mind, we control that. The choices that we have to make in order to self protect may hurt but it’s something we must do.
Protecting your heart isn’t selfish it’s a must.