Beneath all my flaws lies perfection. Beneath everything that I am trying to cover up lies my truth. But I’m afraid that my truth will cause you to leave in a panic and never look my way again. Because of my fear of losing you, I’ll be who you desire me to be. forgetting all of my lies so that I can pretend to be your truth. But now I’m losing me and my delusion mixed with my reality is becoming much more than I can handle. I’m forgetting what I’m supposed to like or what I’m supposed to say because they aren’t authentically my thoughts or perceptions.
How many of us are afraid to show who we really are? We can live behind masks for the rest of our lives but will that make you happy? I know that we all want to find love and that somebody, that will love us unconditionally and tells us that we are beautiful.
You know what I mean?
It means so much when you don’t have to fish for compliments and continue to say do you like my hair, my outfit, can you tell that I’ve been diligent with my workouts?
As a woman, one of the things that I want is the ability to feel free. I need that sense of freedom to feel comfortable with just being me. Comfortable in my own skin and still have you love me. I want to rip down all the walls that I’m hiding behind and know that you won’t look at me differently. The joy I feel of washing my face is indescribable and then followed up with putting on baggy shorts with an oversized shirt that has now been a part of my life longer than I want to remember but it’s too comfortable to throw away….not just yet. You know you’re looking at a hot mess but he still says your beautiful.
Your hair is all over your head looking like a birds nest but he still wants you to lie your head on his chest because he knows that’s your security blanket.
Being able to expose your insecurities without regret. But feeling relieved because that someone is giving you strength and courage to conquer whatever your goals are. Making you believe that you can do any and everything your heart desires. Helping you push all of your fears and anxieties elsewhere. Being able to have that somebody that will give you the tools that are necessary to tear down the walls that you named flaws and reveal your truth, your perfect truth. Enabling you to be unapologetically naked.
To be naked and loved is a woman’s goal.
You could have chosen to read any blog but you chose mine and I’m honored.